Chapter 1: Water has eyes and hands….well really a whole body, or a few.

I have decided to write my story. The story of Evi L. Holmes and all of her adventures. Depending on engagement, I will continue writing my story as long as you guys are interested or until I decide it has come to a good end.
Blood dripped down from her wrist, pooling in the crook of her elbow. A visceral screech ripped from her mouth as she lose her grip on the crumbling stone. Evi hung from the ledge with one hand, gasping for breath, and trying not to look down and see the water 30 feet below. She was slipping and there was no one who could help her. The rock gave way and she fell into the rushing water. The shockingly cold water made her go instantly numb. She didn’t feel the gash in her hand any longer. She didn’t feel anything. The water held her as if she was the rivers lover. She felt hands on her but knew that they had to be in her mind. Eyes closed her mind swirled into darkness. 
Evi’s eyes fluttered open. The landscape had changed dramatically. The snow and pine trees in the mountains had been replaced with a large expanse of beach and a field where she lay. This is where the river meets the sea, she thought. No one has been here. The only way is there the foggy land and the Moore of a thousand woes. No one gets to the end of the river or at least then never return if they do. Evi had bypassed all of that because she was unconsciously floating down the river till she landed on the beaches. 
There were stories of the rivers end. Stories of monsters and or magic, but Evi has never believed in any of the stories. But, a hand erected itself from the sand and grabbed her hand. She tried to unstick herself but it would not let go. It had inhuman strength. As she watched the sand swirled into the image of a young girl. The girl said nothing as it dragged Evi to the water. Evi had no choice but to go along the sand seemed to push her as the girl pulled her. The girl pulled Evi into the water until the sea washed her sandy form away. 
The water took hold of her and as she turned to leave the water she was stopped by a tall man. 
“Alright, can you tell me what is going on?” 
His voice was calm like an undisturbed lake but had a strength and storm stirring beneath it as he answered, “Hi, Evi. I have been waiting so long to meet you. I am Cyan. My sister Celadona saw you struggling back in the mountains and brought you down the river to me.” 
“What do you want with me? I don’t want to be in the water I have never been in the Ocean and I have been told it is a dreadful place, full of death and darkness.”
Cyan furrowed his brow. “That is not it at all. The ocean is my home. I will show you it’s beauty. Here give me your right hand.”
Evi raised her hand slowly and laid it in his watery palm. His form was warm where all the rest of the water was cold. 
“Now watch this,” he cupped his hand full of water and poured it over hers. If hissed as it connected with the open wound but it fell into the cut, hardened and became a part of her flesh; not even leaving a scar. “See, the ocean it not all bad and now it is part of you.” 
“You didn’t answer my question. What do you want with me.” 
“Well that is a very long story and a big task, so why don’t we go somewhere where we can be more comfortable and so you can actually meet me in person.”
“Oh, so you aren’t made from water ?”
“Haha, no that is absolutely absurd. This is just a projection. Come in follow me.” He started moving deeper into the ocean.
“But I can’t breath under water.” Evi hung back. 
Cyan chuckled again. “Ah, but you can. You have ocean in you. The ocean cannot hurt you and you can breath it in. Come on and try.” 
Evi dove under the water to test it out and sure enough she could breath and it felt normal. She saw Cyan’s outline ahead of him. He was a slightly darker bluish green than the water around him. He signaled to her to follow after him and they started swimming out into the depths of the ocean. 

Please feel free to email me any questions, stories, themes, or ideas I am grateful for all your contributions.

My email is evilholmess@gmail.com

My Instagram is @evi.l.holmes 

-Evi. L. Holmes

NANO WRIMO is Almost Upon Us

Hello lovely humans,

There have been so many things going on in my life right now. We are in the middle of October which means I have been doing a drawing each day for Inktober on my personal Instagram and looking ahead we seen November looming near. Nano Wrimo is almost upon us. I am going to try to write as much as I can on my book or a new story. I am not sure how much I will be able to post on here. However, I would love your imput.

If you have any ideas as to whether I should write a new story, install segments of rough cut fiction each day for Nano Wrimo (or realistically larger portions every few days), focus on writing my novel so that I can get it out to you and others like you in a more timely manor, or any other idea that you may think of. I could also do a poem every day or something like that. I do not want to forgo posting but I do wish to make headway on my novel.

Please feel free to email me any questions, stories, themes, or ideas I am grateful for all your contributions.

My email is evilholmess@gmail.com

My Instagram is @evi.l.holmes 

-Evi L. Holmes

Changing Yourself to Meet the Changes that are Thrown Your Way

There have been and continue to be many changes in my life in the last year and the year to come. I have dealt with, and am still dealing with, the grief of the loss of a loved one. My parents are going to be moving to a different country within the next two months. My closest sibling lives six hours away from me and many of my friends live more than a 12-hour drive from me. We can all be overwhelmed at times but for someone who does not know how to process any type of feeling and can be catastrophic. 

Moving on: Grief

Love is an interesting thing. It opens you up to the possibility of loss. When you love someone you give them the ability to hurt you. This does not mean that you should close yourself off. I know that grief can hurt and when you lose someone you love it is like the world is shaken and you are knocked off your feet. I have been dealing with grief and the ups and downs of trying to feel in the midst of all of this pain. There are so many thoughts swirling around in the darkness of my mind. However, through this loss, I have gained myself and I am learning to build my emotions back up after a fall. 

Moving on: Being left behind

My parents are leaving the country. They will be over 20 hours away by plane. This is going to be very tough to transition to. They will be there for at least the next 3 years. This will take some growth and learning in order to be independent. I have the ability to cut myself off from all of my emotions. This seems good at first but eventually, it turns into something dark. I will have to mature greatly in the next few months to deal with this new situation. 

Moving on: Separation

Relationships are not easy and they are even more difficult when distance and time are put in between them. I made many new friends this year but a great deal of them live far away. I miss them dearly and it will be months before I see them again. You would think that things would be fine because of technology and the connectivity of this day and age but some of them are awful communicators. It makes me anxious at times and sad at others but I would rather know them and be miles apart then never know them at all. 

Open yourself up to the world and to people. Yes, you will get hurt. It is not a matter of if but of when. You will have to grieve but that grief will give birth to something new that you did not realize that you needed. Just because it seems like people are moving on and going somewhere where you can’t follow does not mean that they are truly leaving you behind. No matter how much it hurts to love someone, it is better than cutting yourself off completely. 

Please feel free to email me any questions, stories, themes, or ideas I am grateful for all your contributions.

My email is evilholmess@gmail.com

My Instagram is @evi.l.holmes 

-Evi L. Holmes

Creative Writing Ventures: Update

As promised, this post is going to be a brief, general overview of some outside creative writing projects that I am currently working on. If this is something you like, please let me know and I will continue to update you on my progress as I work towards various goals. 

Novels and Worldbuilding

This is, naturally, the largest project in the queue of projects that I have dreamt of. I am currently working on a series of novels that are spanning two eras with a large gap in between. I am drafting outlines for the series in the free time (I know what free time, right?). I am very excited about this project but there is much worldbuilding I must accomplish before attempting to right more than the few scenes that I currently have. I know this is very little information, but you may ask questions and I will answer them if I do not believe it will harm my prospects for publication because we would not want that.

Creative Short Stories

I have so many ideas that would work in a short story format and have contemplated posting some of them on this blog once I have completed them to a satisfactory level. If this is something you all would be interested in, please let me know. There are too many ideas to list here and besides, it is better for them to be a surprise anyway.

The Overflow and Outpouring of my Overactive Brain and Imagination: Should I give you another window into the madness of my mind?

How much of my brain do you want to be able to see? This blog only scratches the very surface of the madness that goes on daily inside of my mind. As the “first movers” of this blog, I want you guys to help shape this blog into what you believe will be beneficial to you. I would love to share more with you but it would be fun for you all to set the scale of how much I let you in on. 

What do you guys want me to do for you? 

I am ultimately here for you. I want to make this little patch of the internet a bright place for people to congregate and just think and learn and be creative. I want to make an impact on the people of this world in a positive manner and writing is one way I believed I could do so. You know what I want from this, so, now it is your turn to let me see what you want as well. 

Please feel free to email me any questions, stories, themes, or ideas I am grateful for all your contributions.

My email is evilholmess@gmail.com

My Instagram is @evi.l.holmes 

-Evi. L. Holmes

Back To School: Update

It has been a while since I was able to post on here and I am sorry for that. My life is currently hectic and crazy. I am back at University and that means that my time is rather limited. This means I will, unfortunately, be less able to post every week as I would like to. Instead of the long-form posts, I have been making, instead, I might write shorter posts to keep engaging with you, my audience. 

What is happening in my life.

As I stated earlier I am back at university and therefore quite busy. I am taking an overload of credits as well as maintaining a job and extracurricular activities. This leaves me very little time to write for fun. (I am currently jotting this down waiting for a class to start in five minutes). You will be glad to know that I am still writing quite a lot. I am taking some reading and writing-intensive courses so this should help to improve my writing for your benefit. I will try to be more diligent about doing small posts on random thoughts that I have but bare with me this semester. It is going to be a bumpy ride. 

Some stuff that is a little bit more exciting

I am working on some creative writing pieces whenever I can get a chance to. I am not going to go into much detail about what they are but just know I have things in the works. I will do an update post on my other work very soon. 

What do you want to see me write about?

I would love your input on any aspect of my writing. What do you want me to write about? Do you like the long-form better or would you prefer shorter posts that you could read quickly? Please feel free to comment or email me any ideas you have or what you would like me to talk about. 

Are you back in school? Are you excited or dreading this semester?

My email is evilholmess@gmail.com

My Instagram is @evi.l.holmes 

-Evi. L. Holmes

Tolkien Movie Review and Other Thoughts

Yup, that’s right, It’s movie review time! *SPOILERS* duh but honestly of you have not seen this movie by now do you even like tolkien? 🙂

On Tolkien 

(this will be brief as I fully intend to write about him in great length in multiple posts.)

I just saw a wonderful movie, Tolkien. If you are unfamiliar, the movie is a story about Tolkien’s life from late childhood to early adulthood. He is a brilliant Author, as anyone who has read his work can attest. He also was a brilliant Philologist. His ability with language was astounding and quite useful in has fantasy novels. Because of his gifts, he was able to create a whole language and fragments of others for his stories.  He has inspired and influenced many authors and much of the modern Fantasy genre has been shaped by his work, and is one of the many influnces on my own writing and a reason I write at all.

Cinematic Artistry and Visual Art

The depiction of how Tolkien saw the world was nothing short of epic. He saw dragons and the world of fairytales right alongside the world he was living in.  As he fought in the war there were monsters and dragons that cut through the gas in the same way that Smaug did on the misty mountain. They showed how he might have seen the world and how vast and beautiful his mind and imagination were. The visual nature of the movie helped to amplify the art that Tolkien did through sketching the world he saw in his head.

Writing, Language, and Inspiration

Something amazing the movie taught me was that language, culture, and history are inextricably linked. The way that Tolkien would come up with a word and that word had a whole story behind it and a specific story was mesmerizing. Language follows culture, the way we move our mouth and tongue as we speak, whether the sound is harsh, guttural, or lilted, and the myths, lore, and legends, they are all tied together beautifully and create such diversity among languages. The geography can even determine the sounds of speech. I have always wanted to create my own language but never got into it because I did not know where to start. The movie gave me an idea to just come up with a word and then write a story about it and eventually I will get used to that. Then I can begin to build the music and culture behind the language that builds the fabric of the world which created it. The ability to think of a word and make a world from the one little combination of letters has opened up a brand new way of writing and so many doors to new worlds that were always in my brain but I had no tools to write.

Acting and Characters

The actors who depicted him were brilliant in the masterful portrayal of a fantastical minded man. Nicholas Holt and Harry Gilby did a fantastic job of portraying the same person with continuity and such similarities that created an accurate depiction of how Tolkien might have been. I have always wished to have been born a boy and I think that part of this is because of my personality not fitting as a girl (but truthfully I would not fit as a boy either) and also because of the groups of boys and young men who had a certain bond that women just do not seem to acquire. This was portrayed in this movie. The group of school boys that Tolkien hung out with was a soceity unto itself. I love these kinds of relationships and this society forshadows the writing group the Tolkien would later be a part of alongside or C.S. Lewis. That group was called the Inklings.

Conclusion

Tolkien is such an inspiration so it is unsurprising that a movie about him would be inspirational. It is always a treat to see the person behind a really wonderful story and that is what the movie was able to do. It was also so helpful to see a potential way that he saw the world and how seeing things differently is not always a bad thing and it can actually be a defining feature and your greatest asset. There are common themes that I see in his life, in my life, and in the life of many writers that showed me that regardless of where I am in my journey I am still a writer. Many people do not realize that he did not publish Lord of the Rings until he was in his sixties. My take away is that everyone’s journey is different. In the words of Aslan (I know its Lewis and not Tolkien, but hey it fits) “things never happen the same way twice.” There will be things along the journey that mold you and events will always be different for you than for someone else. Do not compare to others but let their stories and experiences guide your own.

Personal Thoughts

This movie was part of the reason I got back into writing. It is rather difficult to stay in the same type of work for an extended period of time. I have so many interests and I tend to bounce around in them. This movie was able to show me that I want writing to be what I do primarily. This blog is only a small piece of this. Part of the reason I only publish once a week is because I am worldbuilding and writing some fantasty stories as well. I hope to publish some short stories but is difficult to get anywhere if I split my time between too many things. If I can publish a book then I will have more time to do all my writing because I will not have to work another job. Once I am done with school I hope to publish and then hopefully be able to give you some short stories. The most important thing is that I intend to write and continue writing. I only hope that someone will care enough to read my work.

What do you love about Tolkien? What did you think of the moview Tolkien?

Please feel free to email me any questions, stories, themes, or ideas. I am grateful for all your contributions.

My email is evilholmess@gmail.com

My Instagram is @evi.l.holmes 

-Evi. L. Holmes

Don’t Let Your Dreams be Dreams- Make Yourself a Success Story

“I’ve met some folks who say that I’m a dreamer, and I’ve no doubt there’s truth in what they say”

I have always been a dreamer, for as long as I can remember. I have always gotten lost in the worlds that my favorite authors created just for me. I could see myself in the characters that they depicted. Hermione with her tangled mane of hair, her strong attitude, and her brilliant brain. I often say that I am the person Hermione would have become if she went through middle school without Ron and Harry but the truth is I had them and I had her as well. I always had a world, of my choosing, to slip away to.

Then as I got older, I could create my own. I had always thought up stories but I had never really written them down. Every night, before I fall asleep, I envision the world as I wish it to be or I create a story. I am a thinker and a dreamer, a realist and an idealist. 

There have been many people who have tried to shut me down and say that my dreams would only ever be dreams. My brother beats up on my dreams pretty much any time I bring them up. My mother and father sometimes speak against my dreams but that has become less frequent. They either see that I am serious about my passions or I have satisfied enough of their need for security that they do not care what I do in my free time. I think that they see my passion though. They have always told me to keep my passions as hobbies and do them while I have a “real job” but I do not understand the point of doing something that you hate every day so that you can keep living to do the thing that you hate every day

The truth is that you can make your life what you want it to be. You can be happy in your job and furthermore you should be. It is okay to do a job that you hate for a little while until you get your footing but eventually, you have to take a leap of faith. 

Those who succeed in life have Four things in common. 

One: Risk Takers

It is very difficult to get anywhere without incurring some type of risk. Living is a risky business but what is the worst that could happen? Will it be worse if you do or worse if you don’t. Regret is a tough thing to swallow. It often gets stuck in your throat. You think that it is gone and you can’t feel it for a while and then one day you swallow and realize that it never really went anywhere. You will always wonder what could have happened if you had put yourself out there and tried for what you wanted. The worst thing that happens is, you don’t get what you wanted but the best that could happen is you get all you dreamed of. If you don’t put yourself out their then the best thing that could happen is, you don’t get what you want but at least you are safe. Right? Those who have succeeded had to make the first move. They put themselves out there so that they could tackle their dreams.

Two: Fail Quickly Fail Often

There is nothing wrong with failure just like there is nothing wrong with obstacles. Obstacles build character and they form you into the person that you need to be. They mold you and in the end, make you better. Failure is similar in that it shows what not to do. They are all learning experiences. You want to fail often towards the beginning of your career or whatever it is that you are doing. This helps you to figure out what to do and what not to do and the faster you get a handle on this, the better. You want to fail early because this will help you not to fail later when it could be more catastrophic. 

Three: Get up and Go

When they fail they pick themselves up and keep on going. Sometimes even harder than they did before. Those failures and obstacles develop perseverance and that perseverance helps them get through the next obstacle. They have to be driven and create something out of nothing, whether that is structure, an invention, or a system that will help organize something greater than themselves. People who are driven have passion and they really want what they are chasing. If you don’t want it you might as well forget it. I know what you are thinking, Well, of course, I want it you are so silly Evi, why would I be here if I didn’t. But you have to let it be your sense of purpose. The thing that gives you life and that truly makes you happy.

Four: Practice, Practice, And guess what? Practice

If you really want it then you will practice. Let it consume you. It is said that it takes 10,000 hours to master something. So, I suggest you get started. Whatever it is, you must practice. Start small if you have to. Carve out a set amount of time each day and make it consistent. Form a habit out of it. It could be 15 minutes or 2 hours. Maybe you start with fifteen minutes and add an extra minute each day until you get to 2 hours. Do what works for you but do not wait until tomorrow. If you do, tomorrow will never come. Successful people think about what they want to do all the time. They carve out time at meals or on breaks from their jobs, in between classes or while they are sitting on the toilet. Saying that you do not have time is usually just an excuse. Make time and practice.

There are statistics and odds of how successful you could become but the outliers are the ones who taste real success. They are successful in the area of their choosing. My favorite author, Brandon Sanderson said, in a lecture that writing is not as big of a long shot as people make it out to be. He, of course, is absolutely brilliant and made it sooner than most and in a very big way but those in his writing group also make a living as writers. If you are passionate about something, if you have a dream don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t and if they do, prove them wrong. That is my intention as I write. Every word is a defiance of what people have told me that I could not do. There are so many people who say that you should follow your dreams but all it takes is one person’s negative comments to make you lose hope. Do not let them have that power and rob the world of your passion.

North Star

Dream on little start 

Don’t let your light go out

The moon may eclipse you

Hide you from view

But we know you shine still

Dream on little start

Even though you’re alone

In the deep dark of space

So far from the home

Dream on little star

We see you shimmer

You may feel small

And think you grow dimmer

Dream on little star

You think you are small

But in reality, you are

The Brightest of all

What are your dreams and your passions? Tell me a story of when someone told you that you couldn’t? Did you do it anyway? Have you reached your dream?

Please feel free to email me any questions, stories, themes, or ideas I am grateful for all your contributions.

My email is evilholmess@gmail.com

My Instagram is @evi.l.holmes 

-Evi. L. Holmes